The most authentic thing about us is our capacity to create, to overcome, to transform, to love and to be greater than our suffering.



Thank you for finally, making it easy.

damn girl, dont hurt em

I've decided I'm spending my summer in velour/denim jumpsuits, ghetto hair styles and over sized accessories. I can't wait until its warm again!











And these shorts are going to be a constant this summer:








Kelis inspired corset top






This is going to be one ghetto fab summer & I'm so excited.

I'm just waiting on my customized "Alex D" bamboo earrings.

HOLLA.

In the past 48 hours I've:

+ Taken 4 bubble baths
+ Found about a million photographic treasures on the internet
+ Fell in love with Beyonce all over again with her song Halo
+ Cleaned house & did laundry
+ Became addicted to "Sorority Life" on Face Book
- Went to 2 different courts
+ Went to lunch with the lovely boy in my life
- Looked at pornographic magazines at Bob's magazine shop with N-word Ed.
+ Went to the gym and pumped some iron.
+ Planned two vacations for next month
+ Learned 2 Danzig songs & a Heaven Shall Burn song on the guitar
- Applied for a whole lot of new jobs
+ Watched the season finale of John & Kate + 8 with Emily
+ Got my Scentsy car candle

so if you want to meet evil..

This is what my backyard looks like, currently & I don't see the snow letting up anytime soon. So I'm of course, inside where I don't have to battle the roads with my bald, bald tires. Instead I'm drinking some tea, blogging and contemplating what to paint. I need to start selling paintings again so if anyone's interested, get at me.



My mother just called and told me that her, my sister Andrea and I are going to be going to Kanab on Monday [a week from today] Idk for how long yet but I'm pretty excited because I haven't been there in the 3 years she's owned that house. The weather is supposed to look nice so we'll probably do some hiking and its going to be fun. I just need to remember sun block!

As for everything else, things are going pretty alright. I'm not worried about a lot of the things I should be worried about, if that makes sense. But that's how I like to live my life.. worry free.

Sylvia Ji

I can't describe how much I love Sylvia Ji's artwork. I am completely envious with how well she can paint women. If my paintings even came remotely close to anything of hers I would be completely satisfied with my art.

I'm listening to classical music, drinking tea and reading post secrets; and for some reason, if any reason at all, I'm really, really sad.

Maybe it's because I realize how many secrets I have.

I am making my current problems my last priority. I have more important things to think about right now. I only care about myself from now on. I'm sick of being mentally exhausted with things that are destined to work themselves out. I'm going to do what I want, and I don't care; not anymore.

Supa-Nigga-Sunday

Emily's Scentsy party was such a good time! Its always nice to see my bff's and spend money at the same time. I managed to get away with only buying 1 car air freshener in the most delicious scent [sweet pea and vanilla] I can't wait to have more money because I'm going to buy so much scentsy things its going to be ridiculous.

I couln't be happier with how my arm is starting out.





I love love love it. I can't wait to see it all finished.

Brandi's party was so much fun! We partied pretty hard with Dorito's, Pixistix, Fanta, hot pink cake, Mambas and Mike & Ikes. It felt like it had been so long since we had a night like that so I'm super happy about how turned out. Can't wait for next weekend!!



Overall everything's going good. All I need now is $$$ so I can start saving for the California trip in June. My plan is to save 8 or 9 hundred. Going to be rough, but I think I can do it.

Fridayyyy

Tomorrow is going to be a very busy day for me so I figured I'd get all my blogging out tonight.

First thing in the morning I'm going to get some skrillah. I'm in desperate need of money, especially after what I spent today. + I'm getting tattooed Saturday. I'm so super excited that I'm not even scared anymore. I've got baking to do tomorrow afternoon and LOTS of errand running to do as well. busy busy busy.

Emily's Scentsy party is tomorrow at 5! I'm really excited!



and hopefully, which is a biiiiig 'IFFY', I don't spend a lot of money there. Its going to be interesting because it's a St. Patricks day theme and I'm showing up in an all black cocktail dress because imidiately after her party, I'm going to Brandi's B-day [litterally] dinner & I'm not giving out too many details on that one because I know she lurkes my blog <3<3

Its going to be another wonderful day in the life of Alexandra, which means its going to be hektick, fast, and full of anxt.

I'm looking forward to it.

Ps. I'm kinda bummed today because I switched toothbrushes from my favorite color orange one to the pink one. boooo.

hmm

I just had 2 late night thoughts:

[1] I really want heart shaped waffles.


[2] I'm going to start wearing my red lipstick again.


ktnxbai.

Updates!!

I got my car back!!! I'm so happy to have transportation again cuz fuuuug the bus. I got cable this morning and I watched the whole bad girls club marathon today & still watching. Except, I took a break from it to watch the Jazz win the Pacers! [12th in a row! HOLLA!] This morning, the cable guy told me that it's only supposed to snow one more time and then SPRING! I'm so excited for spring/summer. I decided instead of the normal black, white and gray attire I'm alllllways wearing I'm going to make a point to wear colors like peaches, light pinks and reds:


I've already made plans for Causey, Lagoon, Vegas/California and who knows what else. I've never been so excited for warm weather in my life because I'm normally a huge fan of the snow.

I adore this:

Saturday = <3

I've managed to mess up my room a whole lot more since I cleaned it. I don't know why I clean every inch of my house except my bedroom on a daily basis.. I'm so messy. I'm doing laundry right now, and attempting to clean my room. The other night's double date went well. We managed to eat a whole tray of lasagna, a whole salad, 12 cupcakes and a bottle of juice. I learned how to play Risk and its so much more fun than I thought it would be.

Overall it was a good night. My car will be ready for me on Monday. I'm super excited that I don't have to bum rides anymore.. although I probably shouldn't drive anyway because I'm not quite sure about the status of my driver's license.
I'm going out with the girls tonight, and I'm excited because it's been a week since I saw them all at the same time. I should probably get this started though:

I've been slacking so bad when it comes to painting. IDK what the deal is. Haha! There are so many wires and cords in my room. Its a mad house & I'm sure something is going to blow up soon.

I'm having an urge to make an extravagant vegan cake.

3 & 1/2 hours of sleep

Asleep by 3:30 am, and I'm up at 7:06 watching Harry Potter and the Order of the Pheonix. WTF?!

My favorite Office clip of all time.

first went wrong is hard to find

Things are looking up for me after all. Received a phone call today that my car's engine will be replaced fo' free! I cant wait to have my car back! Hopefully by the end of the week [or Monday]

Tonight's ANTM was such a success! This is the girl I chose:



I think she's oh so adorable, even though she's a Jesus freak and wears stupid ripped nylons and ridiculous headbands. Mostly I picked her because we have the same shoes. Natalie is my back up girl so hopefully one of them will bring me to a win again this year. I'm really happy about the people who decided to come. We made fantastic fajitas and then made root beer floats.



I still haven't finished cleaning my room. I need to do that tonight, I just get so distracted. Tomorrow, I have to have my blood drawn, not excited.

Bekky and I are going through some redecorating, we can expect more with these:

warmth!

I can't believe it!! It was t-shirt weather today! I walked around all day today in a loose shirt and a light sweater. I heard it got up to 75 degrees today!! I love having a red box just around the corner from my apartment; it makes for good walks and long nights.



Today was such a great day. I woke up and had a big cup of coffee, took a nice, long shower, made a few phone calls, made definent plans with Lauren for our double date on thursday [1st one of our lifetimes] cleaned house like a muhh fucka and returned a dvd. &! I have good news about my car! I'll be having it towed tomorrow and [hopefully] the repair begins. If this car does end up getting fixed, I'm selling it the first chance I get! I love that car with all of my heart but its caused me too many problems and cost me way too much money.

&&& It was so wonderful seeing all [-1] of my lovely ladies tonight. I'm so excited for tomorrow because its the season premier of ANTM cycle 12 and Bekky & I are having all the girls [and a few lucky boys] come over for the annual [my 2nd] draft of our Fantasy ANTM. I'm so excited to have something to look forward to every week again. Dinner every wednesday and good quality time spent with the best of friends. I got a sneak peak on the girls and I have a head start on who I'm picking.


uhhhg I suppose I should get back to cleaning my room... dun dun duuunn

Inside my purse

1. limited edition pink Zune
2. wallet
3. my other half
4. sweet mint
5. small notebook
6. where I keep my jewels
7. comb
8. vanilla lip balm
9. cheek brush
10. Ibuprofen in an Advil case
11. skin art band aids
12. makeup bag
13. Gloomybear coin purse
14. Smashbox lipgloss
15. favorite pen
16. diamond studded shades [holla]
17. pink nail polish
18. Hello Kitty compact
19. keys
20. Sidekick LX [brown]
21. celly charms

I've never needed anything more in my life

I win. You lose.

Things are going oh so smooth lately.
I've got my happiness back & it feels good to start fresh.

I've been pretty busy lately so its nice to have the night to download music, drink tea and watch movies. I was cleaning the bathroom today and found [part of] my collection of mini perfumes which I'm excited about because I thought those were long gone when I moved. I'm dying to do some shopping but I have to save save save for my arm tattoo that's coming up in 2 weeks! yikes! I'm excited, & still pretty nervous about it but I think I'm going to love it:



I went on a lovely jog today in daybreak & no matter what time of day or night it is there, I will always feel like I'm in beetle juice. I think next time I'll take my camera out with me.

I've had 3 [big] cups of tea since about midnight and I'm still not tired. I'm cooking up dreams of this summer when I go to Germany because yes, I'm still going, but hopefully I wont be going alone anymore. Cant wait! There is so much I've wanted to do there since I was what... 13?

ok. ok. I think I'll watch Office on Hulu till I just can't do it anymore.