sick of my constant need for proof.

I need to keep a PMA.
Its so difficult to go to sleep and to wake up in the morning and just not think. I have always been an over-analyzer and this is eating away at me. I know its not healthy. I know I shouldn't dwell but I just can't let it go.. Not yet. The only thing I can really tell myself is

this will pass, this will pass. I cant let this sadness become me.

but here I am.. again


[I even bought 7 pairs of shoes since, & still; nothing]